Thursday 13 January 2011

Death Cheater

Yesterday, I need to get up early in the morning.

I had an appointment with a doctor. A surgeon of oncology.

I felt plain on the way to the hospital.

It won’t be the same as I arrived and saw so many people with tumor.

Suddenly, I felt insecure.

Afraid.

Afraid of realizing that this tumor is the bad one.

Couple months ago, I felt there is something in my left breast.

Something that these couple weeks been annoying me.

I am a healthy life adorer.

I don’t eat meat, I don’t smoke but my dad , as I remembered had a little surgery on his lips because of tumor.

Not a bad one but that gives me cue that I might have it too since it’s genetic.

Well, the result of Mammae USG on my left breast said that I have it not only one but two.

I hope that that’s not the bad one and hope that I don’t have to dealing with the surgery knife.

I wouldn’t asking nor blaming God ,”Why?”

But I’m curios of what the doctor will told me, how and why I have this.

And trying to arrange next step to face this.

Now, I am officially a death cheater.
After I post my blog and arrived at home, I grab the bible and found this chapter.

I read Proverbs from January 1st 2011.

And tonight, as I continue to read it, I found this :

3 The lips of an immoral woman are as sweet as honey, and her mouth is smoother than oil. 4 But the result is as bitter as poison, sharp as a double-edged sword. 5 Her feet go down to death; her steps lead straight to the grave. 6 For she does not care about the path to life. She staggers down a crooked trail and doesn't even realize where it leads

I don’t know is this the answer of what I’ve been asking on my previous post.